I hate being wrong. I know it’s not the best quality and I can tell you logically how many valuable lessons you learn from the experience of being wrong. And yet, I still make dumb choices that boil down to trying not to be wrong.
I could tell early in this tunic that the method I was using for my intarsia in the round was too tight and would be noticeable. But I tried to convince myself that it would block out – as if blocking was literally a magic spell to fix problems in our FOs. I told myself it would take too long to undo all the knitting I had done and find a better method. So I forged ahead and wound up with a beautiful tunic with an ugly seam that I spent several nights smoothing out with a crochet hook. Of course I learned my lesson and never forged ahead with a method that I was doubting.
Until my next sewing project where I could tell that I wasn’t catching the edge of my folded up hem. Oh, and my twin needle wasn’t working well, it was breaking every 20 stitches and was a misery to continually be rethreading, stitching a tiny amount and then resetting. But yet again I forged ahead because I wanted to be done with the dress that day. And yet again I ended up spending twice as long ripping out that awful seam and setting it up the right way with fusible webbing and ironing and pins.
I am proud to say that seam is still unsewn. Even though I had my machine serviced, I am still having trouble with my twin needle. I will admit that I considered just forging ahead again, but instead I stopped to investigate solutions. I have a different twin needle on the way and I’m pondering whether a different hem would work.
It felt good to unpick that awful hem, by the way. I’ve always admired crafters who aren’t afraid to go to whatever lengths it takes to make the object they had in their minds eye. I felt a new sense of pride in taking the time to ensure I was making a professional-looking garment.
I am definitely going to make more mistakes, on account of being a fallible human. But I hope I can be less afraid to admit to them. And I hope I can continue to see the value in mitigating my mistakes rather than ignoring them and hoping they’ll go away. I put so much time and money and effort into my projects, I want each one to reflect the best of my skills at that point in time.